returning to the “plain states” again

Well blogging again….must be bored. haha

Not really, I just realize how soothing writing my thoughts and feelings out is for me. I’m at the CLT airport waiting to board my flight to STL for the Alpha Chi Omega Convention which happens to be taking place, finally, in my hometown. I’m really excited because enough of my friends will be going and so I will kind of get to show them where I’m from and how truly special St. Louis is to me. I know I don’t go back very often and complain about it when I’m there but it will always be where I am from and will always be “home” to me.

I’m also extremely thankful because I will have the opportunity to meet up with one sister who reminded me what it mean to be an Alpha Chi and kind of turned my attitude about Alpha Chi totally around when she was at Elon during my busiest time, January, aka recruitment.  She became the mentor I was always looking for when I joined Alpha Chi back in 2009 and it just took me a while to find her.  It was such a fast forming friendship and was so nice to have an older sister I could truly look up to and admire and really just be able to be myself, no trying to be someone to make an impression or to hide who I really was. So yes, I’m very excited I will hopefully get to see her when I’m there!

I am a little melancholy though because my dear dear friend Theresa will not be there and for me, Alpha Chi events just do not feel the same without her there. At Elon, she became such a HUGE and influential part of my experience as an Iota Psi member: reminding me to be honest with myself and others and to do what I feel is best and take true ownership of my leadership positions. Theresa really helped me be okay with who I was and to not apologize for it. While we’ve known each other for years, our friendship truly grew over the past year. I don’t know what I’d do without her in my life and I’m sad she’s so far away from me now and I can’t just drop by and convince her to go to BRD or YO LO or to the outlets to do some shopping. She is another sister who really knows me for me and stands by me and that is something I will never forget and I pray never ever will change no matter how far apart we are or how much time passes when we see each other.

I’m SO thrilled to be able to spend time with 2 members of my Alpha Chi family and to see some of my other very dear friends. It’s going to be a wonderful 5 days and while I’ll be sad to come back and leave my family and not quite know when I’ll be coming back, I’m ready to start my actual “real life”.

All my love….


post grad adjustments

I’m in Kiawah, which has become probably one of my favorite places in the country and I can’t help but be a little sad. Yes, I’m with my family who I love so much and am so grateful for the time I get to spend with them, but being here reminds me of all the times I spent here with my friends over the last four years.

Taylor and Mauria were the first college friends to visit and while we were only here for a short 2 days, we had a really good time and made some wonderful memories–okay well we all got sunburnt so I’m not sure how “good” they are but still–we’ll never forget that trip. Also, the HUGE spider we found and the ‘Teddy’ dance. It was so nice to share the house with my friends because I never had the opportunity to show them my actual home town.

Then during junior and senior year, I had the privilege of taking in different combinations–Taylor, Jeanine, Jason, Liane, Kierstin, Coleman, Kaitlin, and Theresa here for many different trips–all memorable and all really fun. Some of my favorite college and Kiawah memories are ones during those two years. Spring break this past year was really nice because of for the most part, everyone had been to Kiawah at least once so they all felt sort of comfortable and we could just enjoy our time and while I still played hostess, it was less than usual.

Anyways, being down here just reminds me of all those really special times and just reminds me that come August, we won’t all be going back to Elon and continuing to make memories together. We’re graduated, obviously, and are in our own ‘real life’ now where we can’t just call one another up and drive to each other’s apartment and hang out, run errands, vent about school work, go to lo yo, or vill grill like we have been able to for so long. It also reminds me how much I value each one of my friends, no matter the distance between us, whether they are in the other room, down the street 5 minutes, or a plane ride away. Each of my friends, individually and together, improved my college career and by effect, changed my life for the better.

It kind of scares me that our relationships will all change so much now that we are in real life but not being around my friends makes me miss them so much more. But it also reminds me that I want to make my friendships last and that I value each of my friends so much because they helped me so much during college.  And our little groups, like the #sc6 and the core four–while those will all change, we all still can count on one another for support no matter what.  We have seen each other at our best and worsts, unfortunately some of my friends have seen me at my worst too many times, but they all still love me anyways.

A little note of thanks to you guys: I seriously don’t know what my life would have been like if I hadn’t become friends with you. Whether we’ve known each other since the beginning of college (Taylor, Kaitlin, Jeanine, Mauria)  or because of an organization, Theresa LaSime, or because of Florence–Liane, Kierstin, Jase, and Coleman by default :), you all have shaped who I became and I’m so thankful for each one of our relationships.  I don’t know what I’d do without you guys and I promise I will continue to make a solid effort to keep up our relationships even when we are so far apart. I’m so proud of each of you for what you are doing and achieving and I will always be here to support you guys, no matter what.

No adjustment is easy for me and while this one is probably the hardest one for me, I’m confident in all my relationships with my friends and am confident they will last. Now I’ve gotten this off my chest, I’m off to spend more quality time with my family.

Love to each one of you.