is it too much to ask to have someone to talk to constantly and about anything without that person getting tired of it and annoyed with you? my answer would be YES it is too much to ask because it can never happen. people expect too much from others and take advantage of friendships and relationships to release things aggravation and frustrations and expect them to just listen no matter what. people believe their own issues top everyone else’s and that’s stupid because you can’t think that. relationships are about give and take and you can’t keep taking without giving a little and you can’t expect friends to just sit back and listen to you complain and moan about whatever is going on without getting tired of it eventually. you must understand that people get tired of listening to the same things over and over again.
i myself am included in this expectation and i’m sure it’s just because of our human nature. while it’s frustrating when someone doesn’t want to hear about our problems, can we really blame them? their place in life may be that they can’t fully understand or help you or it just may be that they don’t care anymore. when you complain and complain (myself included) over and over, friends get tired of listening to it and they just need a break. it’s not that they don’t care about you…they just don’t want to hear the same thing AGAIN. it’s truly hard to understand but when i look at it from the other side, i really see how annoying it can be.
on that note, it’s nice to be separated from the ‘real world’ a bit. i have been on vacation for like 3 days now and i haven’t had much communication with anyone from home or school, other than a few facebook posts or chats, and it’s actually been really nice. while i’ve escaped to my room and upstairs to watch tv or be alone, i like not having to keep up conversations or saying stuff that you feel like an idiot for later.
there have been those times, however, where i find myself getting so ansi about stuff that i just HAVE to say something when i regret it later. but i’m a person who has to vent and talk things out to certain people to feel better. or i just need the attention to know that someone out there is thinking about me, anyways, my patience totally lacks and i give in and text or email or facebook and then say to myself later, “well that was DUMB!” it’s just so hard sometimes to be patient and i struggle so much with it. it’s frustrating because i want to change so bad and be this positive person that people can see just by looking at me.
i wish this blog had a little more of a positive, happy twist to it; but unfortunately this is how i am feeling right now and typing things out really helps me feel better so this is definitely raw and real katie for the time. it’ll change by tomorrow i know because i already feel a bit better.
sleep well all.